Six Word Saturday (7/24/10)

Wow, God answers my unspoken prayers

I got to see "grace" in action this past week.  My daughter came home in tears from the neighbor's house, and my son (ever ready to rat out his sister -- I hate that about siblings!) pipes up that she tried to steal something but they caught her.  I asked her if she gave it back and she screamed yes and ran to her room and cried for a really long time.  When she felt better she came out and I asked if she was ready for dinner, and she asked me if I was going to tell my husband and I said no.  She looked really relieved and I just treated her like normal.  (From counseling I have been trying every day to do some little thing that shows each of my kids that they mean something to me, and I don't think being caught stealing something should wreck that.)

Anyway, during the night my daughter sent me an email saying how great it was that I was her mom and that she loved me, etc., etc. -- stuff I was SO SURPRISED to read.  I was just blown away.  Then I remembered my "unspoken prayer" (more like, unspoken complaint) to God.  I just finished that Structured Recovery Group last month and, honestly, the one thorn that was still sticking me was the fact that I have had this big fantasy about Claudia, that she would love me back.  And my kids are always complaining and fighting and mean (and my husband thinks it's just them "being kids" but it breaks my heart to watch that), and in those times I had been reflecting on how Claudia probably wouldn't be such a mean awful kid and I would start missing her.  I love my kids but I wish they'd love me back.  After I read my daughter's email, now I know she does, and God answered my prayers.