I found Becky

When I was a sophomore in high school, I went to see Lisa Whelchel (she played "Blair" on Facts of Life) who was then a Christian singer and motivational speaker.  I started going to the youth group of the church that sponsored her concert and I made a really good friend at that youth group whose name was Becky.  We were together so much in church that people started calling me "Becky" and her "Debbie."  We kept in contact after we graduated from high school and saw each other a lot after I got my first job.  Then I moved to Florida when I was 22.  The last time I really talked to her on the phone was when my oldest son was about 2 (so almost 17 years ago).

I have never forgotten her.  I compare my "friends" now to her.  I miss feeling loved like that.  I had my sister get some old pictures from my parents' house when she went for Labor Day weekend and she was supposed to get the one of me and Becky when we were 16, except my mom is a spaz and gave her the one of me and LISA when we were 17.  So for the past week or so I've been really down.  I know I'll never get to see Becky again so I really, really wanted that picture and it depressed me that I had nothing to remember her by.  I've been praying even though I feel selfish about it (but God already knows what you're feeling even before you pray it, you know, so why not tell him) that I find Becky somehow because I really miss her friendship and love, and I even prayed a halfhearted "okay, if You could find someone EXACTLY LIKE HER, that would be okay too, I guess."  And just last night, I know this sounds crazy but I even prayed that it would be okay if Jesus was my only friend as long as I felt loved like that and as long as God didn't think I was insane for talking to him too much.

So today I was goofing around on Google and put in Becky's maiden name and where she graduated from high school and miraculously a page came up from her alumni group with names and email addresses of 1985 grads (and hers was on it!).  But I'm too scared to email her, because I wasn't 100% sure it was her, so then I plunked that email address into Google and found a few posts she made on a forum and she mentioned her husband so now I know 99% sure it's her.  And for kicks, since everyone's on Facebook these days, I searched her email address on Facebook AND SHE IS ON THERE!!!!  All I'm allowed to see is her profile picture but it's definitely HER!!!!

I'm kind of nervous that she wouldn't want to hear from me after all this time, and "you can't go home again" and what if she doesn't love me like that anymore, either.  So I'm kind of scared and haven't done anything with this info yet, but I guess I will pray about how worried I am that she wouldn't want to hear from me.  I mean, I'll more than likely never get to see her in person unless she comes to New Mexico.  But I told my husband that I think I found her and that I probably will want an unlimited minutes plan on my cell phone pretty soon because I could still call her all the time (if she likes me).  I'm scared but happy.