What a Boring Week Looks Like
On Saturday we went to La Posta (Mexican restaurant) to finally celebrate our anniversary since I was feeling better. Both kids went with us. As we were leaving the restaurant, in walks the leader of a Bible study I used to go to (but basically got kicked out of). She was with some friends and looked genuinely surprised (happy?) to see me. She said hi and hugged me and said it was good to see me. And I think I said thanks and walked out the door. I've been in a small rage ever since though. She hadn't spoken to me for seven months at that point! Why say hi? Now it hurts all over again that she and her group don't like me.
Northpoint Online (Andy Stanley's church in Atlanta) started a new series called My Bad Church Experience. I like Andy's preaching style except he has a habit of making a point by pausing before the last two words ... he says. He said that Paul from the Bible would be appalled that we've made him a saint because he knew he was a horrible person (killing/jailing/persecuting Christians). He was so bad, Jesus had to show up! :) So Andy's bottom line was - no matter how "bad" you think you are, you can go to church, because if there's hope for Paul, there's hope for us all.
At counseling Wednesday we talked about me bumping into the Bible study leader at the restaurant. I felt like I was making a big deal out of nothing just because she surprised me and because they've given me the silent treatment for so long, like I should be used to it by now and not hurt. My therapist helped me see how "making a big deal out of nothing" wasn't something God would say to me if I went to him with this. He would be concerned and want to reassure me that he still loves me.
We went to Taco Bell on Thursday. We got a 12-pack of tacos and ate half of them for lunch and then the other half for dinner. My daughter and I also went to a big thrift store and bought her a few tops and a pair of jeans.
And yesterday I did some housework, finally. The kids sleep till after noon so I had a lot of time to myself.
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