Dr. Phil family triggering me

Five years ago I had watched that Dr. Phil family (Alex, Catherine, their parents) when Alex was pregnant, and now they're back and older. Catherine has legal trouble because she's hanging around a stupid crowd and doing drugs. Alex now has two kids and she's living with some guy (she's still married but her husband's in jail). Yesterday's show triggered me so badly because Alex was telling Dr. Phil that her mom (her own mother!!) is going to testify against her at a custody hearing. Alex is hurt (and rightly so) because her mother has stood by Catherine in all her court stuff. And now her mother's siding with Alex's ex!

I feel like my parents are sooo glad Claudia's out of the way. It seems like they think my present three children don't exist either if they don't acknowledge them. They came up to Wisconsin Dells while we were there in July but my mom said they got a hotel in Baraboo near their friends! Like WE weren't the only reason they came up! It really burns me. When I got my first divorce, my parents made a point of keeping in contact with my ex's parents (they still exchange cards at Christmas and my oldest is 18 now, ridiculous). It feels like a betrayal. Hello, this person hates me and barely supported his baby, WHY would you want to keep in contact with him and his parents? GOSH!!

And then I'm in trouble with my whole family because I didn't go back for my father's 70th birthday and the last homecoming for the high school we went to (that's consolidating with another school). Okay, so why does everyone in my family get to treat me like I'm the bottom person on a totem pole all the time, yet when I don't put them as the top person for this, I'm the bad one? I don't get that.

Yesterday (my bad day) I had emailed my counselor. As of right now, he never wrote me back or called me. And this was a big important thing! I'm angry. I try to make excuses for him (maybe he was sick or the internet was down or whatever) and that just makes me more angry. I send him stupid little things like twice a month (like a video from Youtube or a Bible verse someone gives me that goes along with what we talked about in a session) and he always writes back or calls me within a couple hours, but when I really needed him I got nothing! And I just feel like if I write or call him again, he will think I'm a burden. I see him tomorrow so I guess if I get enough guts I'll bring it up, but I probably won't because I don't want him to be mad at me. He's the only one in person who I can talk to about Claudia, so I don't want to mess that up. So weird, I'm mad at him but I don't want him to be mad at me, LOL.