Heard back from my counselor and he will be able to see me on both Wed and Fri next week. Let's hope nobody gets sick. I think I was scared to need him because it would hurt if he didn't come through. He told me I made an impact on his life, and that feels pretty great.
One thing we discussed yesterday was what (good!) things remind me of him so I could think of those things when I need to connect. He wanted a sight, sound, smell, and touch. I won't share them all, but I said for sound I'd pick the song "Shine a little love" by ELO because the chorus reminds me of him: You shine a little love on my life and let me see. Specifically I'm talking about how he lets Jesus literally shine through him because I could see the very first time I met him that he cared about me. Here's the thing though (and I told him this yesterday) -- I can't go back now. I can't go back to feeling like God's just in the sky watching everything, because my counselor showed me God is everywhere and you can feel Him everywhere and it is too real to me now.
I'm glad you get to see him twice next week. Today has been a very emotional day for me and I know God is there and he will never leave me. It's so awesome to know you have God to always count on.
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That's awesome that he got you scheduled for the 2 days. I was hoping it would happen!
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