Six Word Saturday (4/23/11)

I'm so glad tomorrow is Easter!

This is a video from a couple years ago since I don't play handbells any more.

http://youtu.be/j00aRWPxbBY

I just love that song and it was really cool that we got to play it.

Six Word Saturday (4/16/11)

The Waiting Is The Hardest Part

There's an episode of the Simpson where Homer goes to a gun shop to buy a gun, and the clerk tells him it'll be a five-day waiting period.  Homer screams the best line, ever, "Five days?!  But I'm mad NOW!"  Anyway, he goes home to wait and all these reminders pass by in front of him. 

Lately I can relate to this (the waiting, not the gun).  My son keeps getting delayed on his deployment to the military and in the meantime he's still living here and my husband isn't being very nice to him.  It's killing me.  It seems like my whole life is just waiting for something else.  After my counseling on Wednesday then I can't wait till Sunday (for church).  Then after church I can't wait till Wednesday (for counseling!).   I have countdown clocks on my personal iGoogle page - one for how many days till Obama's last day as president, one for how many days till my daughter graduates from high school, and one for how many days till the Third Day concert in Tucson I'm going to.

If this was "One Word Saturday," I would just say WAITING!  Ugh!

Down

I applied for a job transcribing sermons earlier this week.  I thought that sure would be a way to honor God with my skill and I'd also make more money than I am right now when the workload is slow.  Well, I heard back from them that they don't need any more help right now but to write again in a few months.  I feel awful.    I hate that feeling where everyone around you is concerned about money (and my husband's family all brag about how much they have) and you find yourself feeling a little greedy too.  It feels like the only reason my husband would like me is because I make money (hence, he's being a jerk to me lately).  So I feel like I'm failing in all aspects of my life - professional, marriage and being a mom.  I went volunteering today and it's odd how the depression disappears while I'm grading Bible study lessons for the students.  On the way home, a song on the radio by Led Zeppelin ended and then "Keep On Loving You" by REO Speedwagon came on, so I got to hear the entire thing from beginning to end, and I thought about Claudia (which I always do during that song, because I feel like she sings it to me) and I feel a little better.

For what it's worth

Zoe and Ian

Due to the fact Zoe's father is being kind of difficult (and my husband's notorious for ruining everything anyway), it's just not a happy time and it really hurts me.  I thought engagements were supposed to be exciting.  I feel guilty for hoping my son gets to go to basic training soon so there can be some peace around here (you know, since my husband can't be a mature adult and quit starting fights with him over stupid crap all the time).  I wish Zoe could come over more often so I could get to know her, but my son hates it here.  Anyway, here's a picture of them together and thought I'd share.