Just what I needed

I haven't been posting much. Now that we're done with Lynnette's book, I'm back to my boring self.

I was working on an assignment for counseling a few days ago and I wrote (about grief) "Mostly I miss how strongly Cheyanne [our black lab] and my grandma loved me and how much I imagine Claudia would." And ever since then, it's really bothering me. I feel like I'm in a big black hole and kind of worried if anyone's going to love me like that again. I noticed last night I was having a lot of trouble concentrating on work, and then I'm still having trouble sleeping, so this morning I was going to jot an email to my counselor. But first I went on YouTube to play my usual playlist, and on my home page where it had videos recommended for me based on my viewing history, there was this song and I know it was God's idea for me to listen to it (well, my kids look at Club Penguin videos a lot so the recommended videos were like 5 Club Penguin videos and this one song, LOLOL).

When the Rain Comes - Third Day

It really helps. Like telling me he will be there all these days that are going to hurt till January, and also I think he wanted to remind me Jesus loves me stronger than anyone else ever will. I like how God surprises with me songs, it was just what I needed. So instead of writing something depressing, I sent my counselor the link to the video too and explained what it meant to me just like I did here.